Well, it has been quite some time since I last blogged. I’m not going to recap all that has happened in the last several years. I now have two boys, Asher and Jude. I’ve done a lot of looking inward in the last few months. I’ve spent a lot of time with myself and have realized that not many people actually know me. Connections are really important to me, yet why do I have so few? I think a lot of this can be attributed to me throwing all my efforts into my children. One of my biggest fears in life is being a lousy father. Childhood and early adulthood was really rough for me. I felt really alone, almost an afterthought to my parents. My parents were really “hands off” and didn’t spend a lot of time with me. Going away to boarding school and summer camps only afforded me about 3 weeks per year with them. Since I felt so isolated, I am so aware of showing my kids love and joy.
The boys are the best part of Meegan and myself, this is without question. However, there’s more to me than being a good father. I’m a great friend, but I don’t have many here in Washington. My focus for 2014 is building connections. Connections with my wife, with new friends, with colleagues. I’ll be stepping out of my comfort zone, and that is a good thing. One of the best qualities of Meegan is her ability to make friends with anyone. I’ll have to channel her a little bit. This uneasiness has me excited. I’m hopeful for the new connections I’ll be making.